imaginary love

Great article, questions that killed my faith:

The idea that there is a God who wants you to feel loved by him simply isn’t true. Some people are good at feeling imaginary love and other people aren’t. It’s another placebo. For some people the effect is strong enough that it really helps them feel happy on a day-to-day basis; other people get nothing out of it. If it works for you, they will say “great, isn’t God’s love amazing?” If it doesn’t work for you, “just hang in there and keep trying, God won’t give you a bigger dry spell than you can handle, he really does love you, don’t expect that your needs are going to be met in any specific way because that’s arrogant and God’s ways are beyond our understanding.” If we believe that God will absolutely draw near to us if we draw near to him, and he isn’t drawing near to us, then clearly we aren’t doing a good enough job of drawing near to him.

 

Yellow Flag and Privilege

In racing there are different kinds of flags.  During many of them such as the yellow flag, drivers are not allowed to pass each other.  Now imagine in this flag situation the opposite of rubber banding (where in Mario Kart where the AI racers behind are placed closer to the player playing than they should given their performance) was happening.  Pretend the car in first place was allowed to go faster and each car down the line was allowed to put 150 feet between them.  It would make the race more unfair obviously.  I feel that’s what Trump has done to America.

The people of privilege have put distance between the rest of us and now there is more separating us as one goes further down.  The people in last place (refugees and immigrants) are driven further back because everyone has put distance between them.  As a man with a disability my interactions with men of privilege are noticeably different.  We just don’t have much in common.  Until Trump got elected I used to obsess over my closest friend from college but that has all but stopped now.  Because we are utterly different people, our experiences singular.

the biggest problem with good things

I think the biggest problems with good things is you don’t notice them.  We just tune out systems that are working properly.  Kind of like how you don’t think about your washing machine at all until it starts malfunctioning.  A lot of people didn’t vote last election because they just assumed the government would keep running fine without their input.

Help and Those Further Down

Help is of less help to those further down in society.  Some reasons why:

Psychological help often presupposes one has the resources to make a change.  Resources like:

  • A ride to therapy, the doctor, and the pharmacy
  • Money or insurance to pay for care and medication
  • Stable housing and relationships where one has the option to get out of without losing their housing
  • A friendship group that doesn’t revolve around vices and addictions

Therapists often have a poor understanding of those whose problems are beyond their control.  This is especially true because often these people have had middle class upbringings and have never been poor.  Those on the bottom know hyper individualism well because they are on the exhaust end of it!  Hyper individualistic solutions aren’t much help for those on the bottom because in order for their needs to be met (like a ride to the food pantry) another party is going to have to perform a sacrificial act.

Therapy (particularly Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) presupposes one’s negative thoughts about them self are distorted.  The further down one is the more one’s poor self image is validated by those around them.  Belief one has innate worth ends up becoming an impossible psychological burden when everywhere one goes there’re bombarded with the opposite.  Then they’re guilted for having negative thoughts about them self and goaded with the idea that somehow their life will be better if they just had a positive self image.  But positive self image is a key that unlocks the value one already has, it doesn’t create value in and of itself.  For example a pretty person has a lot to gain from going from poor to good self image but the improvement in self image isn’t giving the person anything extra, it’s just causing their good looks to shine more brightly.  This is because the expression of positive self image is charisma and charisma disproportionately helps those who are young and attractive.  If you are male, 45, and making minimum wage, more charisma isn’t going to get you dates or guy friends.

Therapy doesn’t work as well on those brought up in a disciplinarian environment (like many of those further down are).  It takes a good (translation: expensive) therapist to reparent a person who had a harsh upbringing.  Therapy has a different way of seeing things than someone brought up in a disciplinarian environment so a lot of times things that could help end up going over one’s head.  When one is brought up with the idea that everyone is basically evil and needs correction and punishment to set them straight and then they go to a therapist who says people do good because they know it’s the right and healthy thing, not out of fear of punishment it is bewildering.  It would be a good thing to have therapists that had extensive training on shepherding people who hold a disciplinarian world view (while not trying to change it) for those brought up in disciplinarian environments because many of these people are never going to change their ingrained views.

One must realize that in therapy for those further down often the bond with the therapist is more important than whether they are disseminated the precepts of psychology.  That’s the only thing that ever worked for me.

The Discipline of Stigma

There is a good case to be made for the stigma surrounding mental illness, at least for those in power.  For one, it keeps money that could go to the rich from reaching social services.  The second is harder to explain.

We need to start seeing shame and stigma as a discipline because that’s the way those in power see them.  The discipline of stigma keeps people in line, following oppressive social mores like not divulging their pay or playing along with the culture’s ruse of meritocracy (the idea that there is a path to success for everyone provided they work hard enough).  The thing about stigma is the worse it is the more people under its thumb live in fear and those in power have a deep desire for all of us to live in fear so we don’t rock the boat.  If we were to conquer the monumental stigma against mental illness we would upset the discipline of stigma not in the least because we would turn our attention to conquering stigmas in other areas which would scare those in power.  Kind of like how after climbing the tallest mountain one can turn their sights on smaller mountains because of the confidence boost of successfully climbing the tallest one.

Penguins

Great post on loving yourself:

Telling someone who hates themselves that their life will be better if they learn self-love is about as helpful as telling a penguin it can fly if it just flaps its wings. Sure it sounds good, but no matter how hard a penguin flaps, its feet will never leave the ground. Just as there are birds that can’t fly, there are people who can’t love themselves. But, if you told that penguin to jump in the water and flap its wings, that little guy would be swimming circles around you. I’m not saying that self-love isn’t important, only that it is not the only way to feel whole as a person.

We Christians like to talk about Hell a lot, so let’s talk about Hell a little.

White Christians who Voted for Donald Trump:

This is the personal Hell we’ve unleashed upon our people this week. 

And if you’re a white Christian and you voted for Donald Trump: You need to fix this. Now.

You comprise the lion’s share of Trump’s elevation to the highest office of our country.
You knew exactly who this man was while you held your noses and covered your eyes and endorsed him anyway.
You are fully responsible for the flood of personal sewage now engulfing children and adults of color, those in the LGBTQ community, those in the Muslim community.
And you, white Christian, better get you spiritual shIt together and figure out how you’re going make this right.

Or, you can step out into the school hallways and bus stops and coffee shops and Twitter feeds and bring the bold, loving, redemptive presence of Jesus you’re always claiming you want to be in the world. You can actually step into Hell and bring the freakin’ love of God.

Football Advice

If football advice were given out like therapeutic advice blog posts (like this one on emotional intelligence):

It’s more healthy to gain yardage than to lose it
Running the football forward and passing it forward gains you yards.  You want to do this.  When the quarterback or running back gets sacked that is bad because you lose yardage.  Sometimes players run in the opposite direction by mistake into their own end zone.  That will cost you two points and the ball.  Don’t do that.

You’ll want to score more points than the other team
You should try to get touch downs and field goals.  When you get more points than the other team and the game time clock runs out, you win the game.  The more games you win the better because then you can get in the playoffs and if you keep winning you could get in the Superbowl.

Being good at catching a football is important
When a quarterback throws a ball to his receivers, it’s important that they catch it.  Being good at catching takes a lot of practice and you should really learn to do it well.  If you are on the opposing team but not a receiver it’s nice to be good at catching as well as you can intercept the ball so your team gets to have it.  Dropping the football is really bad, you shouldn’t do that.  The other team could recover it.

A football is different
A football is not a basketball, it is oblong and has pointy ends.  Throwing, catching, and running with it is different than other sports.  Footballs have been inflated to their optimal level.  It would be wise not to walk in on them being inflated or tamper with them yourself.  You could even lose playing time for doing so.

 

Culpable for My Stress

I had an appointment down at the indigent clinic and one of the things on the TV is most stress is caused by our reaction to stressors, not the stressors themselves.  While this is true some of the times (like taking things out of proportion in relationships) I wouldn’t say it is the majority.  All this tells me is I’m culpable for my stress if I am unable to play cognitive tricks and take pills that make handling all the shit thrown my way survivable.