Why I Have No Hope

I have no hope because I know modern psychology can take one man and make him a trillion.

I have no hope because modern psychology pathologizes not having hope calling it “depression” whose treatment often is only effective for three years.  Hopelessness is stigmatized as being too negative or illogical when a lot of times it is an accurate assessment of what is in front of you.

I am have no hope because modern psychology has made life all about empowerment and personal happiness which has only resulted in the personal happiness most powerful being important.

I have no hope because modern psychology has helped make everyone hyper individualistic so being dependent or interdependent is stigmatized.  Of course when the people on top offer each other help it doesn’t get stigmatized but once you are on the bottom every interaction those higher up perform for you is seen as sacrificial and altruistic.

I have no hope because the things I want are so easy to procure but the things I need are out of reach.

I have no hope because religion gives me an imperative to hope without any reason to.  Somehow reading some text and performing magical thinking will smoke and mirrors negative assessment of the future away.

I have no hope because when I go to a party with my sister’s friends I get ignored while everyone else gets talked to.

I have no hope because I even get turned down for a ride to a Quaker meeting house.

I have no hope because there is no one or nothing I would quit an addiction for.

I have no hope because I recognize hope is social—something you can be in or left out of.  This definition offends people because they know it’s true and additionally they know they are hoarding hope and not offering it to anyone else because it is a scarce commodity which lessens the worse the world gets.

I have no hope because I recognize that for me and many others hope in God comes only after having a full bodied faith in him; once there are cracks in your faith the hope dribbles out.

I have no hope because the times I’ve been cut off and abandoned this year.  I realize people who cut me off know something bad about my future that I do not yet.

I have no hope but I’m not a suicide risk because I don’t have the means to actually do it.

The Tech Industry’s Psychological War on Kids

I have always understood psychology to be an enemy if not the enemy.

From an article on how digital media is messing up kids:

As a child and adolescent psychologist myself, the inevitable conclusion is both embarrassing and heartbreaking. The destructive forces of psychology deployed by the tech industry are making a greater impact on kids than the positive uses of psychology by mental health providers and child advocates. Put plainly, the science of psychology is hurting kids more than helping them.

Redpill Psychology

Psychology has no conscience, it will give you the opposite thing depending upon who is paying whom.  I do not agree with all the things Redpill believe but I do believe they subscribe to a psychology that more correctly aligns with experienced reality.

Bluepill vs Redpill psychology rubric

Business to Consumer Psychology

Disseminated to person by proxy of therapist or book

You are enough

Business to Business Psychology

Sold to companies to manipulate consumers, affects person through levers of advertising and mobile apps and video games

Buy our junk or you’re a loser.  Stay on our app or you’ll miss out on friendship.

You possess innate worth Your worth is based on how you look and what you do and how rich/high status you are
Grounded in Sociology Grounded in Anthropology
Non reply of email isn’t telling Non reply of email is telling (Eric Schmidt)
“The Secret” Law of attraction – your thinking has huge influence on the way you’re perceived and  received Your looks, status/wealth, and the image you project are what influence the way you’re perceived and received
“Healthy” means becoming an atomized individual Healthy means prospering and becoming interdependent with virtuous people (and ideally being virtuous yourself)
You are culpable for your emotions

“Bitterness” being unhealthy
Emotions are points of weakness ripe for manipulation
Psychologize actions to keep the moral high ground

I won’t date him because he has low self esteem (when it really was his low status)

Cloak the fact that you are using psychology to get what you want
Man is basically good and with ample education will choose to do the right thing Man is a moral agent but starts out bent
Ego (freudian) Id (freudian)
What is going on in your head is what is making your life go wrong Bad actors and circumstances making your life go wrong
Dianetics Gordon Livingston books
Everyone is equal and we should strive to express the outworking of that in society Baked in hierarchies, lobster hierarchy
If you are different it’s incumbent upon society to become comfortable with said difference If you are different it’s incumbent upon you to make society comfortable with said difference
Self esteem at the expense of truth Truth at the expense of self esteem
How you feel is the most important How those in power over you (boss, parent, teacher) feel is most important
More attuned to women’s lived experience More attuned to men’s lived experience
Feminism uses it Men’s rights use it
Ramped up in 1980’s Lots of it is old fashioned

The point here is with a lot of these you can’t mix and match.  Redpill and Bluepill psychology are diametrically opposed even though they are both psychology.



Things I say that offend Christians Part 4

Hope is social.  You can tell how much hope you have by which way the people are moving in relation to your life.  If people are dropping out of your life you know that you are in a hopeless situation because people are instinctively averse to hopelessness and they signal this by the way they act.  Churches actually talk about hope a whole lot but when it comes down to it you can find out what they believe what constitutes a hopeful existence by the way they treat you.  Generally if you have enough “life gems” (looks, decent job, car, house, SO, etc..) they will surmise you have hope.  If not, not so much.

Christians generally have a public and a private position on the phenomenology of the faith.  The public position is God giving blessings and never forsaking you, etc..  The private position is, not so much.  It is understood, even by strong Christians, that God is vastly oversold.  It is also understood that if he wasn’t, there would be a lot less Christians because let’s face it, in America everything is oversold.  That’s why most people embellish their resume (because everyone else is doing it so one must to land an interview).  People who don’t “experience God” are suspect, but there are a heck of a lot more of them (even strong Christians) than one would like to think.

The idea that “life is a gift” doesn’t apply to adults, particularly adults with disabilities.  As an adult with a disability I know my life is certainly not a gift.  I know this because if my life were a gift it would be received as one.  This is why I’m an antinatalist (against humans propagating).  If I were to have a child it would likely have one or more disabilities.  I know from my own experience that as an adult it would be treated like crap in church.  I get that Christians are natalists and pro life but it’s hypocritical to bring people into this world and then, if they happen to have a disability, let them languish.

Authenticity is an existential threat to Christianity.  Generation Y and Z are not afraid to ask 3am questions at 8pm.  This spells trouble for the church, especially because most churches are like a real life version of social media where we present our highlight reel while shoving our behind the scenes under the rug.  Christians claim life works a certain way and God does certain things.  But when your lived experience flies in the face of this Christian fellowship becomes a lonely, isolating place.  When you are off their map you have to try to build a completely new map with a completely new social circle and this takes a lot of work, hurt, and effort.

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3